tisdag 2 januari 2018

Bokslut

Mitt omedelbara deltagande i vår värld har blivit allt mindre, liksom världens deltagande i mina förehavanden verkar har blivit. Ett stort mått av isolation pågår. Detta är min känsla, och om den stämmer så är det inte rakt igenom dåligt. Jag tror det var Tranströmer som påminde sig själv om något som varje skrivande människa nog då och då bör stanna upp inför, nämligen påminnelsen om att man lever i en tid som bryr sig mycket litet om det du ägnar dig åt. Litteraturen kan vara en författares allt, men ett ingenting för resten av världen.

När en författare kläcker ur sig något meningslöst alster tycks det vara mera allvarligt än när en människa ägnar hela sin karriär åt något meningslöst, ja, rent av skadligt. Kanske med viss rätt, för ordkonstären bär på de nycklar som i bästa fall kan öppna portar för livskällorna i själen. Meningslösa ord vilseleder och förblindar, men livsdugliga ord ger livsmod.

Att vi lever i en tid som inte längre förmår ta till sig poesi ter sig uppenbart, det tjänar heller ingenting till att klaga men kan vara värt att påminna sig om. Intressantare dagsländor svävar vid fönstren i varje stund. Kvittrande hörs från oändliga skogar. Stormarna i vattenglasen verkar oändliga. Vad det handlar om är att fortsätta som ingenting. Stoicismen i detta!

Som skrivande individ har jag sedan länge vetat att man måste lära sig att leva på svältkost då det kommer till bekräftelse. Sedan kan det inre livet spira och konstnären får snart en hel trädgård att sköta om och fritt ströva omkring i. Där alstras fantasifostren, där bildas de nödvändiga sambanden som man sedan börjar nysta i. Somligt kastas bort, somligt vänds och odlas. Som skrivande människa behöver man tukta sitt kött för att bli mindre av maktmänniska, och mer av just tålmodig trädgårdsarbetare.

”The true artist is a man who believes absolutely in himself, because he is absolutely himself”, skrev Oscar Wilde i en känd essä. Skrivandet och dess zon är något både provocerande och häpnadsväckande, att komma på vad ledstjärnan egentligen vill en är en stor hemlighet. Vad vill jag få berättat? Vad är det jag vill efterlämna? Vad behöver berättas för just den här tiden? Svaren kan variera, och allt låter sig inte säljas. Exempelvis har jag under året lärt mig, eller snarare anat, att detta att skriva om kyrkan och kristendom inte riktigt är möjligt i vår tid, svårt är det åtminstone, kanske främst eftersom sekulariseringen slitit av vår synbara kontakt med den och omöjliggjort berättelser som tar avstamp i trons erfarenheter. Detta betyder inte att man inte ska göra det.

Det nya året kommer med största sannolikhet att bli ett turbulent år. Människor gjorde antagligen rätt i att överge journalisternas sanningsanspråk till förmån för konsten och författarna, att söka det som är värt att veta. Något i stil med vad Oscar Wilde skrev: ”Now Art should never try to be popular. The public should try to make itself artistic. There is a very wide difference.”

Om jag önskar någonting för egen del är det att bli bevarad från de värsta stormbyarna, samt många stunder av kreativitet framför skrivapparaten. Att vara i världen, men inte av den – det är en väsentlig del av konsten.





torsdag 28 december 2017

Magisk julnovell

I dagens Smålänningen kan man läsa en magisk julnovell av mig. Där publiceras även en intervju där jag bl.a. talar om det som jag nog idag skulle benämna barndomens "efter julen-melankoli", samt få lite spännande nyheter om mitt skrivande. Vill man läsa mer om mina inlästa noveller kan man surfa in på min hemsida och klicka på fliken som handlar om noveller. God fortsättning!


fredag 24 november 2017

Jag gästade Kronobergs bokmässa

Protestanten är en högaktuell samtidsroman om rasande tempel. 

Köp den här!


En roman om anständighet

onsdag 8 november 2017

Life is too rich for me

Does life sometimes seem to rich? Too full of impressions? Too much of demands? In short: does it feel too much? Then you might experience life's richness in too much of its fullness. It was at one of those occasions that I wrote a song of just that.
"You make Leonard Cohen seem happy!" 
exclaimed one friend of mine, when he heard the song.

Click here to listen to it on Spotify!

tisdag 25 juli 2017

A Scandinavian's Guide to Kiev

This text will be personal and perhaps not relevant to all readers. There are lots of interesting things to see in Kiev, like museums and monuments, but it is not at those places I spent most of my time, nor having my best or most memorable times.

Oddly enough, I have probably spent more time in Kiev than any other capital in the world, that being said I must also confess that I didn't spend a lot of time in any big city - not in Sweden, nor elsewhere. I visited Kiev for the first time last year, staying for three weeks. This year I came for a two-and-a-half week stay.

Being a scandinavian, I found Ukraine to be both challenging and liberating. To some extent it reminds me of some places on the coast in northern Sweden, with its broken asphalt and untouched green areas. It feels dirtier, messier, and faster than Sweden, hence my mind easily enters an "auto-mode" in which poor "I" am there, and not there, at the same time - which feels like a cheaper, but still a neat version of forgetting yourself, and getting lost in the city-experience.

I don't know if this claim is statistically true, but most people don't seem to speak much English in Ukraine. When I ask people about it (those who do know English) it seems to me that the school-system doesn't provide a very usable English-education; the students don't seem to practice speaking, instead prioritizing mere word-knowledge. However, I understood that some people who are dedicated or have rich parents can learn much more and pay for special lessons. It is not like in Sweden where, in order to pass school at all, it is mandatory for students to pass Mathematics, Swedish and English. In Ukraine people speak Ukrainian or Russian, which I believe is as similar to each other as Swedish is to Norwegian. 

First of all, I recommend that you find somewhere to live in the outskirts of Kiev. Hence you will see more sides of the city, and of the people. You will have to take small and often crowded buses to get anywhere. You will have to get your drinking-water in the forest, which lets you see forests too! 

Now comes some deleicious reflections and recommendations from me, if you are interested in visiting Ukraine. And here is an interview in english about Ukraine, which I also recommend :)





The blessings of Kiosks
They are everywhere! - popping up around the metro entry-points, and inside of them, under ground, and Í find them just lovely. You can buy a lot of things there, for example the famous kvas - which tastes like berry-juice, or like beer, but most of all like something we have in Sweden called svagdricka (near-beer). During the hot summer, a cold kvas is a clear favourite.

In some of the kiosks, I have also found coffee better than even the best you can get at home. Normally you can buy a cup for 8 to 14 hryvna (less than one dollar) -  which is really cheap! If you want milk in the coffee, that often cost around 2 hryvnas extra. Ukrainians seem to like their Americano hotter than hot, so be careful!

The kiosks are a feature hard to find in well-organized Sweden. With their cheap, tasty, on-the-go-food, and lots of usable little items, kiosks are one of the most adorable things in Kiev. In kiosks and bazaars I have, for example, bought a lot of a rugged type of soap-bar which costs around 5 hryvna. It is made out of natural substances, leaving the skin considerably clean without much smell, and it lasts for ages. This time in Kiev I found a type of soap-bar which is also made for cleaning clothes, should you have the need - (or perhaps taking the shower with clothes on ... )

Fruit. Food. Clothes. Sun-glasses. Memory-cards. Socks. Most of the little things you might need can be purchased in kiosks.














The food
A "must-try" is dumplings! They can be found in normal grocery stores, or in restaurants with local food. Inside the dumplings you can have chicken, meat, or spiced mashed potatoes. Eat them with smetana.

Middle-eastern chawarma comes in many sizes, and can be bought in kiosks. It is very good and valuable food for the price and reminds somewhat about the kebab-roll.

It is worth the mentioning: McDonald's in Kiev tastes considerably better than Swedish McDonald's. This holds true for the classic Big Mac, but also for the McFlurry. I first heard people say it, that Ukrainian McDonald's is better, but didn't think it was possible with this kind of difference in taste, but it sure was! And it is also much cheaper in Ukraine than in Sweden. Around one third of the price.

In stores you can also find something "cheese-like" called sirok. They come in bars and are nice to buy and eat like a snack. As far as I know they are healthy, and they cost around five hryvnas.

Last but not least, the halva needs to be mentioned. I never saw it in Sweden, and I wonder why, because it is a very tasty and meaty dessert. It is like a cake, but not quite. Somewhere between food and cake, I suppose. Thick textured and sweet, it can fit your milk perfectly without being too unhealthy. Or perhaps together with tea? You can buy it very cheap in grocery stores and they come in lots of different flavours. But don't over-eat it, which I have done.




The drinks
Kefir. How amazing it is! Cheap and healthy, you can bring it in a bag and drink it in between your water-intakes. During summer it's such a fresh drink - or snack. I found an organic kefir coming in a small bottle, which I could recommend, had I only kept the package.

Bottled milk. The taste of standard Ukrainian milk I find much richer than Swedish milk. Perhaps this also explains why the McFlurry tastes so much better?

And a note on water: Don't drink it from the tube. Boil it, buy it, or get in in the forest.

And I already mentioned kvas

lördag 1 juli 2017

Meningen

Vill gärna tipsa om den Malmöbaserade podcasten Meningen, där man i senaste avsnittet kan höra en dikt som jag har skrivit.


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